Perhaps its the evil-doing of my hormones, recently been feeling a little too down for my own good...it was a period whereby "contentment" seems stupid and "patience" seems too far...
I had such intense urge to tender my resignation...just throw the letter and walk out of the company...if only I had won ToTo, the $1.5m draw will do just fine...I was so frustrated that I started to look up for schools and centres offering part time degrees from overseas universities...
I wanted to achieve more...not a traffic girl forever, not a junior traffic girl who have no powers, no authority, no say...I just want some respect...Perhaps, I have been too naive...thinking that I'm so good that everyone will want me...I'm just a nobody with no experience and skills...I'm stupid...
Arghhhh...frustrating week it has been or rather frustrating months...I have to get back to the strong self...the strong dra...not the self-pity dra...Jiayou~!!!
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
I'm a growing woman...
This morning I put on a pair of jeans that I hasn't been wearing for quite a while. As I struggle to tug it pass my hips I realise this was the pair of jeans that I had to wear a belt with...I had a sudden flashback of the figure 45.5kg on my weighing scale...I'm fat...officially...period.
I know that I have pit on quite abit of weight and I have been in self denial for the past few weeks...telling myself...I will not eat tomorrow...but as the saying goes.."Tomorrow never comes"...
Recently I forced myself not to look into the mirror too frequently and unnecessarily..but my office building management has to decide to plant all the lifts with mirrors...not to mention its all ceiling to floor length mirrors...I have to brace myself each morning for the trauma and humiliation...
I'm glad that the lifts are mostly crowded...sparing myself the need and space to look into the mirrors...
I know that I have pit on quite abit of weight and I have been in self denial for the past few weeks...telling myself...I will not eat tomorrow...but as the saying goes.."Tomorrow never comes"...
Recently I forced myself not to look into the mirror too frequently and unnecessarily..but my office building management has to decide to plant all the lifts with mirrors...not to mention its all ceiling to floor length mirrors...I have to brace myself each morning for the trauma and humiliation...
I'm glad that the lifts are mostly crowded...sparing myself the need and space to look into the mirrors...
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
My life is so interesting...
My life is so interesting...my life is so interesting...my life is so interesting...my life is so interesting....my life is so interesting...my life is so interesting....(infinity....)
Sunday, July 29, 2007
Nua-ing day...photo blogging day...
Tired...*yawn*...shall post some photos of my Bintan trips instead...
On the ferry...before he got too sea sick to take a pix...
Chicken grill~!...The free salad and soup buffet was quite good as well...
Him and his rib-eye steak...he was so full by the end of the meal...haha...who ask him to keep attacking the desserts/soup buffet before his main was served?
One of my favourite photo taken over there...we look really happy and relaxed... :)
His footprints...don't do anything foolish my dear...
It wasn't as fantastic as I hope it would be but still...we did had fun...looking forward to my next holiday with him...hopefully somewhere nice and cooling...
On the ferry...before he got too sea sick to take a pix...
Chicken grill~!...The free salad and soup buffet was quite good as well...
Him and his rib-eye steak...he was so full by the end of the meal...haha...who ask him to keep attacking the desserts/soup buffet before his main was served?
One of my favourite photo taken over there...we look really happy and relaxed... :)
His footprints...don't do anything foolish my dear...
It wasn't as fantastic as I hope it would be but still...we did had fun...looking forward to my next holiday with him...hopefully somewhere nice and cooling...
Stormy days...but good food...
Back from Bintan...a little tiring but for me, its all good fun...for him...all was okay I guess...except for the ferry trips which killed him...
We did nothing much except eating...eating...and still eating...ate so much food that I think I must have put on at least 2kg now...
Wanted to go for the snorkelling trip cos he hasnt done it before...thought it would be a good experience for him but the weather was so bad and unpredictable that we gave up the idea and stayed in our room, enjoying the air-con and tv...*yawn*...
Managed to have a few games of pool and haha..I was actually lucky enough to beat him 3:2 I think...the temporary tatoo didnt have very nice or fanciful designs to tempt us into having one..if not I think it would be rather cool to have the same prints on our hands/wrists...
Overall, Bintan is pretty much still the same where I last visited it...expensive and over-priced...no more shuttle buses around the island restaurants..only via Taxis and they are highy expensive...but Bintan Lagoon Resort seems to have more activities to do than Nirwana Gardens...they have their own water-sports centre at least...plus their food at most restaurants are really good...minus the Gado-Gado that we tried on the first day...really can't appreciate it..the sauce is nice and I think people who enjoy this dish might feel that its really good..not for me...the pick-on-most-food girl...
Sun could have been more cooperative though...rain almost every hour...quite a spoiler...but their leisure centre thus provides a number of in-house activities...pool...table tennis...gaming room...spa...2 mahjong tables...karaoke lounge..but bear in mind all these have a cost attached to it...rental and etc...
well..overall...give this trip a 6/10..could have been better if we stayed longer or the Sun is more cooperative...or if everything can reduce their prices by 20%...next time if i go...I wanna stay at Angsana Spa Resort...but dont think this will happen in the near future...Bintan is not really a place that you can keep going back I feel...
will post more pictures tomorrow...he's reading his comic while I typing this..he didn't even know I'm typing my blog..."blockhead" again...haha...
We did nothing much except eating...eating...and still eating...ate so much food that I think I must have put on at least 2kg now...
Wanted to go for the snorkelling trip cos he hasnt done it before...thought it would be a good experience for him but the weather was so bad and unpredictable that we gave up the idea and stayed in our room, enjoying the air-con and tv...*yawn*...
Managed to have a few games of pool and haha..I was actually lucky enough to beat him 3:2 I think...the temporary tatoo didnt have very nice or fanciful designs to tempt us into having one..if not I think it would be rather cool to have the same prints on our hands/wrists...
Overall, Bintan is pretty much still the same where I last visited it...expensive and over-priced...no more shuttle buses around the island restaurants..only via Taxis and they are highy expensive...but Bintan Lagoon Resort seems to have more activities to do than Nirwana Gardens...they have their own water-sports centre at least...plus their food at most restaurants are really good...minus the Gado-Gado that we tried on the first day...really can't appreciate it..the sauce is nice and I think people who enjoy this dish might feel that its really good..not for me...the pick-on-most-food girl...
Sun could have been more cooperative though...rain almost every hour...quite a spoiler...but their leisure centre thus provides a number of in-house activities...pool...table tennis...gaming room...spa...2 mahjong tables...karaoke lounge..but bear in mind all these have a cost attached to it...rental and etc...
well..overall...give this trip a 6/10..could have been better if we stayed longer or the Sun is more cooperative...or if everything can reduce their prices by 20%...next time if i go...I wanna stay at Angsana Spa Resort...but dont think this will happen in the near future...Bintan is not really a place that you can keep going back I feel...
will post more pictures tomorrow...he's reading his comic while I typing this..he didn't even know I'm typing my blog..."blockhead" again...haha...
Thursday, July 26, 2007
Finally...~! The day is so nearrrr...
I'm going to Bintan tomorrow...yay~! Though its just a weekend trip and its only to Bintan, but I'm looking very much forward to it...Rest & Relax...food..spa...soak in bath tub half the day...
Finally a weekend of nua-ing...hopefully it will be fun and memorable...wanna make sure he will enjoy this trip also...when i pass him the card he seems abit surprise only..haiz...he says he's quite surprise and happy lah...hopefully really so...now i got to think of next Thur present liao..dont know wat to get for him also..prob Mon go and get...anyway...come bk then think...
80% packd and ready to go~! Bintan Lagoon here we come~!
Finally a weekend of nua-ing...hopefully it will be fun and memorable...wanna make sure he will enjoy this trip also...when i pass him the card he seems abit surprise only..haiz...he says he's quite surprise and happy lah...hopefully really so...now i got to think of next Thur present liao..dont know wat to get for him also..prob Mon go and get...anyway...come bk then think...
80% packd and ready to go~! Bintan Lagoon here we come~!
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
Surprise surprise..~!
hee...he keep mentioning about going over-seas...haha..though its not really a fantastic trip but still its better than staying at a hotel in Singapore rite? in the midst of preparing the card that I'm goin to give him this weekend...can't wait to see his expression when he receive it...can't wait..so excited that this few days I keep telling myself to ren ren ren...
almost complete..just need one trip to Made With Love and it should be ready by saturday...
hope he will be surprised and very happy about it...haha...can't wait... :)
almost complete..just need one trip to Made With Love and it should be ready by saturday...
hope he will be surprised and very happy about it...haha...can't wait... :)
Songs of the Sea...
Now that Singapore is promoting tourism...everything cost money...even the musical fountain that once was free need a ticket as well...
They even have a new name for it... "Songs of the Sea"....as 'suah ku" Singaporeans, we queued behind some tourists to enter the now fenced up auditorium...I kept grumbling to him.."why must we queue or why must they fenced up the whole area?"...till we reached the door and the staff request for the tickets then we know we need to pay for the show...nothing is free in this world (esp Singapore) ok...?!
So we rush to the ticketing office and purhase 2 tickets ($6.00 each ok!?) for it...it wasn't as fantastic as I thought it would be...and $6.00 for it..I still think its a little over-priced...plus the songs that they sang wasn't even live...all recorded...well call me cheapo but I feel that if its live..it would be much more impressive...
The $2.00 entrance fee allow you to take the Skytrain to and fro Vivocity and again...as "kiasu" Singaporeans...we must enjoy this benefit to fully utilised our $2.00...we took the Sky train to Vivocity and back to Sentosa again...wandered off to take the tram and realised everything within Sentosa is much cheaper if you have the islander card...so immediately after that day..I wnt back to the office and printed the application form for it...(which takes about 4-6 weeks to process if you send it in via mail..apply at Vivocity will be much faster....)....I 'm gonna try to "go-kart" thingy the next time I go into Sentosa...
The happy us on the Sky train... :)
They even have a new name for it... "Songs of the Sea"....as 'suah ku" Singaporeans, we queued behind some tourists to enter the now fenced up auditorium...I kept grumbling to him.."why must we queue or why must they fenced up the whole area?"...till we reached the door and the staff request for the tickets then we know we need to pay for the show...nothing is free in this world (esp Singapore) ok...?!
So we rush to the ticketing office and purhase 2 tickets ($6.00 each ok!?) for it...it wasn't as fantastic as I thought it would be...and $6.00 for it..I still think its a little over-priced...plus the songs that they sang wasn't even live...all recorded...well call me cheapo but I feel that if its live..it would be much more impressive...
The $2.00 entrance fee allow you to take the Skytrain to and fro Vivocity and again...as "kiasu" Singaporeans...we must enjoy this benefit to fully utilised our $2.00...we took the Sky train to Vivocity and back to Sentosa again...wandered off to take the tram and realised everything within Sentosa is much cheaper if you have the islander card...so immediately after that day..I wnt back to the office and printed the application form for it...(which takes about 4-6 weeks to process if you send it in via mail..apply at Vivocity will be much faster....)....I 'm gonna try to "go-kart" thingy the next time I go into Sentosa...
The happy us on the Sky train... :)
Off to Ubin...
Me and my brilliant suggestion to go Pulau Bin...
He never been there before since his primary school days...so big mouth me proudly claim that I have been there a few times and know the place quite well...
We went there in the afternoon, thinking I had everything prepared, I was full of confidence and excitement...10 minutes of cycling and I regreted suggesting this trip...The weather was hot despite a brief shower which drenched us both..the mosquitoes doesn't seems to be affected by the insect repellent on me...and the terrain proves to be too difficult still for me to cycle up and down the slopes...
Still he never complained about anything...we passed by graves...temples...jackfruit and durian trees...took pics of quarry...we peddle like mad...but still..it was fun...he made it fun...
The more I am with him..the more I love him... :)
He never been there before since his primary school days...so big mouth me proudly claim that I have been there a few times and know the place quite well...
We went there in the afternoon, thinking I had everything prepared, I was full of confidence and excitement...10 minutes of cycling and I regreted suggesting this trip...The weather was hot despite a brief shower which drenched us both..the mosquitoes doesn't seems to be affected by the insect repellent on me...and the terrain proves to be too difficult still for me to cycle up and down the slopes...
Still he never complained about anything...we passed by graves...temples...jackfruit and durian trees...took pics of quarry...we peddle like mad...but still..it was fun...he made it fun...
The more I am with him..the more I love him... :)
For fun, laughter, peace and joy...
This is what he will always say...
Anyway...we went Marina South after I attended the farewell party for a colleague...(farewell parties..wats new?...everyone's leaving except me :(....) anyway, Marina South is quite eerie at night...not much people and it was very hot...despite being just by the sea, there wasn't any breeze at all...
Had a good shot here..one of my fav so far...[cos I look thin in it and he look good as well, very vain hor]
Think they are trying to revamp the whole place but piece of advice..don't ever go there alone at night...too eerie..too much spider webs...too quiet and too dark...we were there only for a while before we decided we need somewhere cool and airy...
Anyway...we went Marina South after I attended the farewell party for a colleague...(farewell parties..wats new?...everyone's leaving except me :(....) anyway, Marina South is quite eerie at night...not much people and it was very hot...despite being just by the sea, there wasn't any breeze at all...
Had a good shot here..one of my fav so far...[cos I look thin in it and he look good as well, very vain hor]
Think they are trying to revamp the whole place but piece of advice..don't ever go there alone at night...too eerie..too much spider webs...too quiet and too dark...we were there only for a while before we decided we need somewhere cool and airy...
Pasta...river...ice-cream cone...
He mentioned that his ex-girlfriend called and etc...didn't sound too happy about his recent happenings and so being the "gung-ho" me, I promised him a night of fun and joy...
I went to Raffles Place to get the tickets for the river boat ride a few days before and made reservations at Ricciotti...I planned and create an itinerary for him, enclosed in a red enevelope...very excited about it as I has wanted to take the boat ride for quite some time myself...
The day finally arrive and I was much too early...I reach Riciotti earlier than expected and left my credit card with the cashier...he arrived in a rush...left his wallet at the site and didn't have time to dress himself properly...he said I look classy that night..haha...when I pass him the envelope..his reaction was abit strange..wary and not too happy...he thought I was going to pass him some love declaration or rejection...anyway...he somehow guessed that we wil be taking the boat ride..*chey* so much so for the surprise...
After diner, we proceed to boat quay for the baot ride...didn't manage to get the best seats but nevertheless we still have quite a fun ride...he was way too close to me and my heart was thumping so fast I thought I'm going to have a heart attack soon...I know he was tryin to hug me hee...
He had a chance..we took pics..but he still didn;t have the courage to hug me close...but well I was freezing myself too...never rush..dont rush...dont hug me...I kept thinking...haha
Tada~!!! Here's the pix we took...we do look happy and blissful rite...after the boat ride, we went to MacDonalds for the desserts that we bought at Ricciotti and had some ice-cream cones too...sinful yet blissful...heck the weight~!
Anyway, I'm glad that he enjoyed the nite and I was pleased with myself too...for making him happy...It's just the start...I'm sure there will be more of such lovely trips in the future...for us... :)
I went to Raffles Place to get the tickets for the river boat ride a few days before and made reservations at Ricciotti...I planned and create an itinerary for him, enclosed in a red enevelope...very excited about it as I has wanted to take the boat ride for quite some time myself...
The day finally arrive and I was much too early...I reach Riciotti earlier than expected and left my credit card with the cashier...he arrived in a rush...left his wallet at the site and didn't have time to dress himself properly...he said I look classy that night..haha...when I pass him the envelope..his reaction was abit strange..wary and not too happy...he thought I was going to pass him some love declaration or rejection...anyway...he somehow guessed that we wil be taking the boat ride..*chey* so much so for the surprise...
After diner, we proceed to boat quay for the baot ride...didn't manage to get the best seats but nevertheless we still have quite a fun ride...he was way too close to me and my heart was thumping so fast I thought I'm going to have a heart attack soon...I know he was tryin to hug me hee...
He had a chance..we took pics..but he still didn;t have the courage to hug me close...but well I was freezing myself too...never rush..dont rush...dont hug me...I kept thinking...haha
Tada~!!! Here's the pix we took...we do look happy and blissful rite...after the boat ride, we went to MacDonalds for the desserts that we bought at Ricciotti and had some ice-cream cones too...sinful yet blissful...heck the weight~!
Anyway, I'm glad that he enjoyed the nite and I was pleased with myself too...for making him happy...It's just the start...I'm sure there will be more of such lovely trips in the future...for us... :)
Sunday, July 1, 2007
Someone like him...
He makes me smile...he makes me laugh...he makes me feels like a Queen and he makes me feels in love...
I never thought that I can proclaim my love for someone so soon and publicly...we have been together for only one month plus but I feel as though we have know each other for many years..we are so comfortable with each other that I feel so relax and blissful beside him...
I never thought I can fall in love again..I never thought I can find someone I can see my future with again...Even when I first met him..I wasn't sure we will have a chance together...I wasn't quite over my last relationship yet...day by day..minute by minute...I'm falling in love with him...
My feelings and love for him grew so much over the past few weeks...despite my ocassional tantrums and mood swings...he never show a single sign of displeasure or irritation at me...
His declaration of love for me everyday only makes me feels more secure and think lesser of the otherwise...his patience towards me and readiness to accept faults awes me still...
But still I think my level of sensibility and maturity now helps as well...trying to cool myself down...trying to think logically..controlling my tempers...I have my past relationsip to say thanks to I guess...making me a stronger person in every way...
New beginning, new challenges...I'm glad I have to stick with him for a very long time till forever...I'm glad I find someone like him in my life...
I never thought that I can proclaim my love for someone so soon and publicly...we have been together for only one month plus but I feel as though we have know each other for many years..we are so comfortable with each other that I feel so relax and blissful beside him...
I never thought I can fall in love again..I never thought I can find someone I can see my future with again...Even when I first met him..I wasn't sure we will have a chance together...I wasn't quite over my last relationship yet...day by day..minute by minute...I'm falling in love with him...
My feelings and love for him grew so much over the past few weeks...despite my ocassional tantrums and mood swings...he never show a single sign of displeasure or irritation at me...
His declaration of love for me everyday only makes me feels more secure and think lesser of the otherwise...his patience towards me and readiness to accept faults awes me still...
But still I think my level of sensibility and maturity now helps as well...trying to cool myself down...trying to think logically..controlling my tempers...I have my past relationsip to say thanks to I guess...making me a stronger person in every way...
New beginning, new challenges...I'm glad I have to stick with him for a very long time till forever...I'm glad I find someone like him in my life...
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