I actually found this old blog of mine 6 years after I last logged in...

6 years down the road and a mother of 2 kids now...what a major major transformation for me...i shall try to keep some records of the daily life of our family...I love them so much... :D

What do i want in life?

Dont know dont know dont know lah...dont ask me what i want..i used to think i know what i want in life...recently...i sort of lost that motivation dat drive...

work has been rather stressful at times...i feel very frustrating at times too...but isnt dat wat i want? or rather i thought i want?

i can even dream of work...

this co definitely have its opportunities and chances...but are those chances wat i want? sales? isnt dat wat i wanted to do initially? i have a gd chance now...but do i really really want to do sales?? dreading my appraisal on Monday cos i think i have to make a decision as to wat do i want to head towards in the company...project management or sales?

such headache actually...

A sweet moment...

While watching the Hong Kong Film Award on Sunday, I gave this comment while tey were playing out a tribute to an old actor.

Me: Who is this old man?

Him: A very old actor and someone important to the film industry. And why you like dat say people old man? Next time when you are old no one will remember you.

Me: Hmmm...Dats true.

Him: But I will remember you...

:)

It could have been worst...

It's been so long since I last logged into this blog. So many things have happened, some good, some bad. I finally tendered my resignation last Dec. Finally served my 2 months notice period. Had a good trip to HongKong and Macau with Nic and his family. I wanted to bring Dad & Mom around Taipei. I wanted this chance to make it up to dad & mom. I wanted to let mom enjoy this trip that she has wanted so much.

I learnt my lesson. Never give up any chance to be filial to your parents. Cos you might never get another chance. Mom suffered a stroke the very 1st day we were there. She didnt get a chance to travel around Taipei. She didnt get a chance to soak in the hot springs. She only had the chance to stay in the ICU ward of a small hospital for 2 weeks and almost another in their normal ward. Her stroke was a sudden and malicious one. She was left weak on her right side of the body. She couldnt even sit up by herself and sit steadily for more than 2 secs.

Hope came when International SOS arranged for Mom to be transported back to Singapore via SQ (as we went there on SQ tickets). Finally, after 18 days in Taipei, Keelung, we can all go back home now.

Since the date of accident (22nd Feb '07), Mom has been recovering well. Slow but recovering. She on a rehab program and doing physiotherapy daily and her leg seems to be stronger now. Arm is still weak though. Hopefully, by the time she can be discharge, she can at least walk with the help of the frame.

This week I finally started on my new job. It seems like I will be pretty busy and there's lots to learn and catch up. I'm pretty tired actually. Physically and mentally. Both my sisters and dad feels the same way too. Everyone is being stretched out. Stretched to their limits. I wish things will turn better and better soon...I wish Mom will be better and better everyday...I wish everyone will be healthy and pink everyday...This is my greatest wish...

Its all my hormones' fault..

Perhaps its the evil-doing of my hormones, recently been feeling a little too down for my own good...it was a period whereby "contentment" seems stupid and "patience" seems too far...

I had such intense urge to tender my resignation...just throw the letter and walk out of the company...if only I had won ToTo, the $1.5m draw will do just fine...I was so frustrated that I started to look up for schools and centres offering part time degrees from overseas universities...

I wanted to achieve more...not a traffic girl forever, not a junior traffic girl who have no powers, no authority, no say...I just want some respect...Perhaps, I have been too naive...thinking that I'm so good that everyone will want me...I'm just a nobody with no experience and skills...I'm stupid...

Arghhhh...frustrating week it has been or rather frustrating months...I have to get back to the strong self...the strong dra...not the self-pity dra...Jiayou~!!!

I'm a growing woman...

This morning I put on a pair of jeans that I hasn't been wearing for quite a while. As I struggle to tug it pass my hips I realise this was the pair of jeans that I had to wear a belt with...I had a sudden flashback of the figure 45.5kg on my weighing scale...I'm fat...officially...period.

I know that I have pit on quite abit of weight and I have been in self denial for the past few weeks...telling myself...I will not eat tomorrow...but as the saying goes.."Tomorrow never comes"...

Recently I forced myself not to look into the mirror too frequently and unnecessarily..but my office building management has to decide to plant all the lifts with mirrors...not to mention its all ceiling to floor length mirrors...I have to brace myself each morning for the trauma and humiliation...

I'm glad that the lifts are mostly crowded...sparing myself the need and space to look into the mirrors...

My life is so interesting...

My life is so interesting...my life is so interesting...my life is so interesting...my life is so interesting....my life is so interesting...my life is so interesting....(infinity....)